justrun-.

i am wrong.

happy belated birthday prissy!
(although u don't exactly come here. haha)
rahh, so sorrie! dint have time to get a present for her :(
but! i will, when i am allowed to go sh-sh-shopping :D heh.

oh wait,
happy birthday gargenia!

yeah, now that i'm done with the birthdays...
i officially make today, the 26th of August, a jinxed, bad luck day!
:( grr.
seriously starting to have second thoughts about --
is it really worth it?
all this sacrifice?
with all the -------- expecting you to be perfect
everyone looks at u differently!
even...
people you once thought to be your friends
i mean, now all they think you are doing is useless
and that you're just a mean, ----ing machine rite?
they don't care about the time you invest into this thing...
to serve them. them, the school...
i really really really want to rip off my --- sometimes.
i don't want to be a different person because of --.
i really don't! argh. but?
won't this whole year be wasted if i give up now?
will it?
or will persevering just...
screw up the rest of my sec sch life.
argh-. whatever.

i just really don't want to have to be such a different person!
i don't want to conform to society's definition of a "perfect student"
i just don't!
see the point in this.
yet, i know...
that a part of me wants to stay.
t o r n.

sorrie hamster,
i will try to be the "perfect student" from now on.
no, maybe not.
i don't knowww.
aloo's twin is mean, scary and... argh.
"i think you should tell -------"
argh! it's ringing in my head :(
shh. i need peace.

could today get worse?
loser me got my elbow into a pile of bird poo during lunch
was quite...gross.

though chinese test part 2 went well...
so did talking to yoyo.

grrr.
put me into a blender
and press
b l e n d
pat puree =.-"

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [16:02]

and took [20040826] strides

it's the passion that drives you